Sleep deprived and dizzy, that’s the perfect way to start the week right? I’m at the airport for a blitz visit to Zürich. It’s going to get crazy hot there, so I’m dreading this trip. I hate cities in the summer, it’s like walking in a witch’s cauldron. But hey, at least I’m not afraid of flying like my partner in crime, so there’s that.

Have a wonderful week.

I needed a break from everything, but unfortunately that’s not the reason for my silence these past few days. Things are moving along, some are clearer than they were, others are just sitting there waiting to succeed or fail. And on top of that, I’m leaving for Zürich again tomorrow morning. So yeah, that’s my life right now. I need to schedule time just to breathe.

Enjoy your Sunday. I’ll try to do just that, in between chores, errands, packing, and neglected todos.

Started the day today with a tough briefing regarding the Big Bad Thing. I like to get things out in the open, but this was hard. And by out in the open I still mean internally, sorry curious readers. All will be revealed soon.

I assume that the rest of the day will be chipped away by this very thing. Wish me luck.

Too little sleep, too many things, too much Big Bad Thing, and just, well, too much. That’s me in a nutshell today. I can’t even blame the alcohol, because although last night was nice, it wasn’t excessive. Just going to barrel through this day as best as I can.

Feeling a little bit better this morning, which means I’ll have to try twice as hard to take it easy. Stupid body. At least I haven’t lost my voice yet, although it’s still early. I need it for later, phone meetings are really hard if the person on the other end can’t hear you.

I’ve got a busy day in front of me, so I’ll leave you with that. Hug yourself, unless you have someone to do it for you.

I’m breaking one of my rules today by going to work despite not being well enough to do so. It’s not that I might get someone else sick, it’s not one of those maladies that are bothering me, but I should really take it easy when I feel this way. Too many things are relying on the coming days though, so I’m going to risk it just this once.

The Big Bad Thing is one of those things. I’ll know more later today, but there’s a new deadline: This Friday, June 15. This is a deadline set by me, so it’s going to clear things up. I’m looking forward to a clear road ahead, no matter what it holds. Not knowing what’s next is exhausting.

This week will suck. I’m trying not to be negative about it though, looking for the silver linings, and enjoying the little things. At least that’s the plan. Good luck with your own week, whoever you are. If you have a moment to spare, send me a happy thought, or a something to cheer me up. I’m going to need it.

Woke up sweating with a sore throat. My body is probably trying to tell me something. Treating it with ginger tea as usual, hoping it’ll pass in a few hours, otherwise next week will start much harder than I’d like. Fingers crossed.

Yesterday was a disappointment, in terms of the Big Bad Thing, but not a surprising one. It is what it is, until it isn’t. I can’t wait to tell you how it goes, these mysterious journal entries are even boring me…

I’m spending the weekend in Stockholm, preparing to move out of the apartment, to a new one nearby. I don’t have much, but there are some things to pack, and to pack away in the mostly furnished new place, so I’m going to do that. While I hate moving, I like how it forces me to consider what I’ve got in terms of stuff, and decide what to keep and what to get rid of. I’m sort of looking forward to that now.

Something of a deadline day for the Big Bad Thing, although I don’t really expect things to wrap up or anything. Will know more in a couple of hours, or maybe on Monday because Friday deadlines tend to slide over the weekend for some reason. At least where this is concerned, freelance writers won’t agree with that kind of behavior.

Have a great Friday, y’all.

So many things happening today, important stuff, the Big Bad Thing might be wrapping up with the next 24 hours (part 1 at least), but all I can think about is how shitty people can be. Yeah, things are hard sometimes, hard to talk about, tough subjects that take thought and strength to approach, but that’s what you do if you’re friends. I get that everyone’s the star of their own little drama, but raise your head and look around every now and then. You might see someone that really need you to call, or just send a message. Someone you supposedly care about, but haven’t bothered to stay in touch with so you don’t know what’s going on in their lives.

Yeah, sorry. Something reached me last night, and now I’m pissed at people who should do better. Fuck ‘em, I say, but that’s easy for me because I’m not the one who’d need that message or call.

Still, life’s too short for shitty friends. Fuck ‘em.

Today is a national holiday in Sweden, the national holiday actually. I’m sure there are waving of flags and organized celebrations all across the country, but I’m having none of it. Not for any political or otherwise societal reason, but because I’m way behind on work so that’s what I’ll use this bonus buffer day for.

If you want to celebrate Sweden today, please don’t wear a horned plastic hat. Do have a drink though, that’s always appropriate.

It’s always interesting when different industries meet. I’m at Fashion Tech Talks at Fotografiska in Stockholm today, listening to how the fashion industry is using tech. Some interesting talks thus far, especially the parts that touch sustainability.

Spent most of yesterday celebratory drinking. I guess I can blame my shitty sleep on that, or the heat in my bedroom. It makes this morning feel very much like a Monday.

I focused all my negative energy on writing yesterday. Normally I don’t do that, if your heart’s hurting you’ll just get melodramatic stuff on the screen, but it was a way to cope that didn’t involve bad decisions. It might become something, or I might trash it, but if nothing else it’s some 5,000 words of self-therapy right there.

Yesterday was a big day. Papers were signed, steps were taken, offers were received for the Big Bad Thing, and I can tell you exactly nothing about any of it just yet. Sorry.

Today has left me vulnerable and numb at the same time. I need a break, but that won’t happen just yet. Keeping it together with whisky and duct tape.